-Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim-
During the last few weeks, I have had some really interesting experiences. Some good and some bad. All in all, I would say that whatever has come my way has been worth it. I believe that everything happens for a reason, even if we feel really upset at the time about what has happened, I know sooner or later those feelings won’t matter to me anymore, and I’ll eventually come to understand why it has happened. That my dear brothers and sisters is part of my outlook on life. Perhaps it is something those that aren’t close to me may find difficult to understand and question why I am able to behave as though I hold no grudge towards people that have upset me.
With the Grace of my Lord, I ask God (Glorified and Exalted is He) for His help in making me better at adhering to my principles. Because I am human, and I am susceptible in making mistakes all the time, that there is absolutely nothing I can do without His help. I believe a reason as to why I am co-morbid is for this reason. My chronic illnesses remind me that I am in no position to be arrogant about any good quality that others may see in me. Every time I feel pain, and my pain becomes unbearable it’s to remind me to not become arrogant, and for that I have even more love towards my Creator. For me it is a blessing, because if I am not reminded and I die in a state of arrogance, then how will I enter my true home, Paradise? In this way, God reprimands me, and reminds me of the principle I need to adhere to.
But what happens when people have hurt you? How do you forgive people when they have upset you? What about the tears you’ve shed because of all the pain they’ve caused you? What happens to the principle of forgiving others when you have done nothing to deserve it? How could they hurt you, when all you’ve done is nothing but be dutiful and do right by them? It can be hard to be the one who forgives in such situations, especially when it is forgiving them without being given a sincere apology. I suppose it is at times like these, where we learn from the experiences of the Sahabas (companions of the prophet pbuh). I would like to share a story with you about Abu Bakr (ra).
So what had happened was his daughter Ayesha (r) was slandered in the worst way, and he found out that the one who had started the rumour, was a man named Mistah, whom he had been supporting financially. At first quite naturally, he withheld his charity to the slanderer, after which Allah swt revealed the following ayah:
And let not those among you who are blessed with graces and wealth swear not to give (any sort of help) to their kinsmen, Al-Masakin (the poor), and those who left their homes for Allah’s Cause. Let them pardon and forgive. Do you not love that Allah should forgive you? And Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. (Quran 24:22)
Upon hearing this verse, Abu Bakr (ra) had come to the resolve that he of course wanted Allah’s swt forgiveness, so what did he end up doing? Not only did he continue to financially support the man, he decided to give him even more money than he did before.
So after I learned about this story, I remind myself of this experience of Abu Bakr (ra) which helps me to achieve my resolve. I would rather that I have the ability to forgive, then hold a grudge and remain angry. I would rather that Allah swt forgives me for all of my sins. I would rather be that type of believer who can readily forgive those that have caused me a great deal of distress, then stop my good actions towards them.
Whether or not they see or appreciate my good actions, whether or not they see my character-the character I strive so hard to do justice with- for what it is, I believe that people that are sincere will see sincerity for what it is. I believe that whatever I do, I do it because I believe it is the right thing to do, and people that matter will see that. I do not need to further justify the actions I do whole-heartedly to people who can’t see that. Because good actions will be well received by good people, so if there are people who can’t value that then why be upset? Is it not rather saddening that they are blind to your sincerity?
I’d like to end with an ayah from the Quran.
And who shun the more heinous sins and abominations; and who, whenever they are moved to anger, readily forgive. (Qur’an, 42:37)
Know that Allah swt will value your good actions, as well as your heart that has the capacity and willingness to love and forgive.
This is Apple reflecting on her experiences over the past few weeks! Love you all~